Am i Wrong?

 Hello Everyone ,

I am 30 years of working women from India . I got married 1 year back in 2020 after dating a guy 2 years . Initially he was very sweet but as time goes on and when he got to know that i also love him he started showing his other side. For ex: If i am at my room and due to some reason i couldn't answer his call he started pointing on me . I had relationship which i told him and he also was in relationship but we both left these when we got into each other .

He once has seen my pics in which i was celebrating birthday of my ex , he abused me beaten me u like hell, thrown my clothes away from my body and beaten me like anything and left me alone. 

I thought he might have seen in pics so he didnt like so he has right to do this but i was wrong . I havnt done anything wrong . He cant beat me due to my past pics . I forgive him and  again started with him . He abused me multiple times B**** , Wh**, Motherf*** and xyz all abusing words he can say to me . I every time ignored all these red flags . I have never abused him till that time .Once he beaten me up on my birthday because i asked him to come on time but he was late and lied that he has another work to do . I was waiitjng for him to spend quality time on my special day . Because i have no one expect him he didnt like me to talk to anyone so gradually i stopped talking to my friend even . He was really insecure .

After lots of ups and down times come for marriage .At that time we come up with fight just before 1 month of our marriage he insulted me and my family and tortured us he wont marry just because i was asking him to talk to me but he has other things to do and he abused me so i said those wrong words back which he said to me . He siad he will not marry and left me for 1 month without talking . But anyhow we got married . 

After marriage he started abusing me again he was forcing me to leave me my job so that i can do household chores .When i asked him that before marriage i have told him very clearly that i wont leave my job because of household chore i can leave for my child if i wont able to manage both parallelly . But he and his family torchured me made my fun he stopped giving me time making me insult infornt f his family started abusing me . I was in continuously depression and every time crying . He made fun of my tears as well . Meanwhile i lost my child but he never cared for me like a husband . He was just doing his responsibility by taking me to the hospital . I came back to my parents home for few days and things gt better . Again i went with him everything was good but due to some reason i got abused by his family everyone in his family blame me for household chores. He supported me there because he they also insulted him . We left the house and came to a new home . But from the day he came to the new house with me he was confused and wanted to go back . We had huge fight i started shouting crying because from last 1 year was bearing all this and when i came out from that shit now he , who is the anyone with me blaming me for household chores . He expected me to spent money which i was doing but he said lots of wrong word here as well . So i also started abusing and abused him back 2-3 times . We got into physical fight he hit me and i hit him back . Now again he is leaving me that i hit me and insulted me and my family IN front of everyone . He think that he can abuse till the time he want but i cant do that even i cant shout i cant react when i laugh at me . because he is a man and i am a woman ,But let me know if due to anger i abused him back is this my fault should i always bear this thing . I am not able to take any decision i was never aggressive and abusive i became this person in last 3 years by bearing all this .